I am thankful for: My decree to give up guilt.
Today was a really good day. A really good day. We had a work-from-home day due to the blizzard conditions in our northern town. This meant that Boy, Hub and I were all in the same house for nearly the whole day (the weather had subsided by the time Hub had to go to work). This meant I got to sneak up and kiss my kid when I went for a yogurt or a soda and I got to feed him instead of pumping every three hours.
And after Hub went to work, Boy accompanied while I did dishes and sang to him (something that made him smile so big his face must have hurt!).
Then, after a short nap, we had story time, bath time, and bed time. It was one of the best evenings I've had with Boy in a couple weeks. And here's why:The past 2 weeks, I was doing 6am trainings a couple days a week. The trainings were good and I was happy to do them, but they rendered me super exhausted by the evening hours and I found myself pining for the time when Boy would be ready for bed.
Thankful Moment: He was also coming down with an ear infection last week, so he wasn't as much his good natured self - so glad he's feeling better.
And, yes, I felt SO guilty for that. I want to soak up every minute I can of his awesomeness, so to be counting down the time until bedtime made my heart just hurt. But each day I reminded myself that guilt wasn't allowed and it was okay to be tired. This got me through.
And then today I got to enjoy the evening without feeling guilty for the days that were hard, without feeling like I missed something by not having every day be like today. Today was enough. It was enough to live in the moment and enjoy every second I had - without harboring guilt for any other day that might not have been as great.
I'm thankful for the constant reminder I have to stop myself from being my own enemy.
I hope you enjoyed your leap day.